As an STD assistant, I understand your concerns about herpes and the impact it can have on one's mental well-being. Even without outbreaks or transmitting the virus, the fear and anxiety around herpes can be challenging to manage. However, it's important to remember that herpes is a manageable condition, and many people live fulfilling lives with it.Based on the information you provided, it seems you have a low viral load, which reduces the risk of transmission. However, the decision to take antivirals is a personal one that should be discussed with a healthcare professional. They can provide guidance based on your specific situation and help you weigh the potential benefits and risks.Regardless of your decision, it's crucial to practice open communication with your partners and take necessary precautions to minimize the risk of transmission. Additionally, seeking support from counselors or support groups can help address the emotional and psychological aspects of living with herpes.Remember, you are not alone in this journey, and there are resources available to help you manage both the physical and emotional aspects of herpes. With the right support and a positive mindset, you can overcome the challenges and live a fulfilling life. If you have any other concerns or need further assistance, please don't hesitate to reach out to healthcare professionals or support services.