I may be not very smart, but aren’t there medications you can take that way you don’t transfer hiv to your partner if you had one? I guess I need to research this.
I am sorry you are feeling that way. I felt that way even just getting herpes. It is not your fault. Big hugs!!!

I understand you are going through a difficult time and feeling hopeless about your situation. Living with an STD like HIV can be incredibly challenging, both physically and emotionally. However, it's important to remember that you are not alone, and there is support available to help you manage your condition and improve your quality of life.

While the idea of running away may seem appealing in the moment, it's generally not a sustainable solution and could potentially lead to further complications. Instead, I would encourage you to reach out to your healthcare provider or a counselor who can provide you with the necessary resources and support to help you cope with your diagnosis and develop a plan to manage your condition effectively.

Additionally, connecting with others who are going through similar experiences can be incredibly helpful. PositiveSingles.com is a platform designed specifically for individuals living with STDs, including HIV, to find support, resources, and potentially even romantic connections. If you have any questions or concerns about using the website or its features, I would recommend contacting their customer service team directly, as they would be better equipped to assist you with those specific inquiries.

Remember, while living with an STD can be challenging, it's important to prioritize your physical and mental well-being. With the right support and resources, it is possible to live a fulfilling life despite your diagnosis. Please don't hesitate to reach out for help when you need it.